Sunday God Rant

I am still trying to find the "perfect" church. I don't know why I think there is one, but I feel like somewhere along the way there has got to be a church I feel totally comfortable with, and get that "church family" feeling. Right? Maybe I have too high of expectations. 
I'm stuck between what exactly I believe and what every other Christian believes. I'm really excited to dig into my "Understanding the Bible" class, and have debates with people.
I believe God gets to judge and make decisions- not everyone else. I may be wrong about a lot of things, but I know the three things that really matter 1) Jesus died for our sins. 2) We accept him and BAM we're going to heaven. 3) God is love.

I know it's all important (the bible, trinity, repenting, ect), but I know those three things, and God can deal with the rest. It's not my job to understand, it's my job to love and put my faith in Christ. I realized that it takes SO MUCH EFFORT to try and understand everything. I strongly believe that you only need to fully understand what YOU believe. That's why it's called faith. That's why you're constantly growing as a person and learning. If you think you know and understand than that's sad. Why? Because then you're going to stop learning. Stop trying to learn, stop trying to grow. 
I like not knowing everything, because let's be honest- nothing is worse than thinking something and WANTING to be wrong.
For example- if you just KNOW that you're boyfriend is cheating on you, but with every ounce in your heart, you want to be wrong.
This type of thing relates to my everyday life. I don't know EXACTLY what God believes about homosexuals, sex before marriage, ect. I know what's said is said as sin. I know that sins are bad. I know that God forgives sin's though. I know that though I know the bible has some not super positive views on premarital sex and homosexuality- but I want to be wrong. I want it to be that I understand it wrong. I don't know if I can believe that if you're gay you're going to hell. I don't want to believe that if you've been raised Buddhist that you're going to hell. So - I want to be wrong.
However, this is the dealio. I DONT HAVE TO KNOW OR UNDERSTAND. It's my job to love the sinners, strippers, saints ,and saviors. It's my job to love EVERYONE. I have to have faith. God is the only one who has to decide who goes to heaven and who goes to hell- so YAY ME, 'cause I don't have to sweat it. I have no say :)