New Mantra

Hey Y'all,
Sorry for the lack of posts recently. This was a really busy long week which was not improved by the fact that I'm sick! I have a sinus infection which is now turning into some sort of coughing, can't really breathe, kinda thing. It sucks 'cause I can't really talk like a normal person let alone sing.
However, I had an observation in RCA Studio B yesterday. For all of you who do not know, that's where Elvis recorded many of his songs, Dolly, Johnny Cash, ect. It's one of the oldest studios in Nashville. Anyway, why am I sharing this with you? Because when there was some down time, I asked if I could play the piano in the studio, and the audio engineer said yes! So, even though I sounded REALLY shitty, and I know I say that a lot, but I'm serious- literally bull frog status (due to this sickness), I went over for a solid two minutes and played a little bit of one of my songs. I got kicked off after those few short moments, so they could continue recording. The significance  I found out that it was the exact piano that Elvis used to play and record on. Yeah- I played a piano that Elvis Presley played on! I'm upset 'cause of how terrible I was, but I'm extremely happy, because how amazing is that?!

Anyway, what I want to tell you all about today is my new mantra! "Stop waiting for life to begin. It's already started."

I have always been the girl who insists that I love doing spontaneous things, and I do. I love to not plan things out. However, I am rarely the one to initiate the spontaneity. I've always blamed it on the fact that I don't drive. I need to stop doing that! I love adventures. Yeah, they often make me uncomfortable, and uneasy- because it's something I'm not used to, however that is so good for me! I'm always quickly reminded how bored I get and how interested I am to see and do other things I've never done before.

Growing up so far, I've always had a plan. I've had milestones that I just had  to make. Milestones that I insisted were going to make me happier, better, stronger, more of a badass, ect.

I found myself saying things like:

"I can't wait to get to high school, because then I'm going to start getting into really good shape, and go running and stuff."

"I can't wait for sophomore year, because then I'll get over my self conciousness in regards to performing."

"As soon as I get out of Iowa,  I can finally do something with my life."

"I can't wait for college, because I'm finally going to get to be the person I want to be."

Just yesterday I found myself thinking,

"Just wait, next year I'll gain confidence, sing more and learn to play guitar. I'm gonna learn how to drive this summer, and I'm going to take over Nashville."

So today it kinda hit me.

  WHY AM I ALWAYS WAITING FOR THE FUTURE?!

Why aren't I just starting right now. I want chocolate icecream? I'm gonna go get some. I want to go dancing? Fine, I'll grab a taxi and go by myself. I want to to put on a fancy dress, get dolled up and feel all fancy? fine- I'm going to do it.

I'm tired of saying "someday I'm going to do _____"
or "One day, I'll do ____"

I mean I'm the queen of lists. Bucket Lists. The thing is, is that I'm constantly adding to it, which is fine, but I'm never crossing anything off.

I'm going to start living, and I challenge you to too.

Start right now. What do you want right this instant? What have you been putting off or thinking about, but just haven't gotten around to doing it, or have yet to find the motivation to get started?

Right this very second. Do it.

YKYACKW: You start to figure out who you want to be.